Moments

    i miss you. i miss the moments we've had. do i miss you or only the moments with you? no i miss the both of it. i once tried to act like i don't really care as much as i do now, but i can't because deep inside i do care. but i realized something these few days. i felt terrible about me.

    idk why. kenapa gue sometimes ngerasa awkward sama orang yang gue sayang. bahkan ngerasa aneh diperlakuin baik(sama beberapa orang). Perasaan ini tuh aneh, and in the end, hal-hal itu bikin gue jadi serba salah tiap mau ngomong tentang anything, sampe ngelakuin sesuatu aja gue serba salah. apa gue terlalu ngebiarin hal-hal buruk lewat gitu aja yang terjadi sama gue?

    is it better to be alone? i mean, without have no one to hurt us. gue sering lebih pengen sendiri. tapi, gue mikir.. kale gue sendiri, mungkin gue gaakan dapet hal-hal kayak gini buat gue pelajarin. beberapa orang mungkin tau gimana bikin gue ketawa. tapi gabanyak yang tau gimana bikin gue bahagia.

    banyak pelajaran yang udah gue dapet along my life is going. but, only a few things that i can apply to my days. setiap hari, gue selalu gagal di malam harinya. the morning - evening are fine with me. but in the night, it's the worst day-part. because when the night comes up, i think of every bad moments that  i expected it would be good. i have the negative thoughts from my mind. and sometimes, i feel worry about the things i have now. not only at the love things, but everything. i'm scared. scared about everyone will leave me one day. not because of their death, but they'll just leave me. so i'm trying my best to keep everything i have now.👍