When i shut my mouth the tightest, that's when my heart screams the loudest.

it's so boring in class. it's like me have been thrown by the others hahahaha. is it me that haven't matched with the class or me that ain't matched with the class? but apparently things just aren't the same way again. i feel like losing something but i still don't know what is it. kyk lo udh mulai merasa keilangan sesuatu yang biasanya ada di keseharian lo, tp sekarang udh jarang nongool. tp sumpaah gue bored as hell but di kelas hahaha rese bgtbgt. apalg tiap bikini group, oh i really don't like that stuff. i'm not that dumb. out of class, some of my friends yg biasanya ngobrol2 brg trs ketawa2 brg trs curhat2 gt udh pada sibuk sendiri hohoo
adasih yg bisa gue ajak main ajak ngobrol jg, tp the way me and them talk, is really different and not that comfortable like i used to talk to my friends. sakit bgt rasanya..haha but when i showed my not-in-the-mood face to the, they keep asking me why. what happened to me, or anything else. i think, where were you going when i needed you the most? when i needed you to tell what i've been through this few days, when i needed you to tell everything i want to tell..

huuuuh btw, this few days have been busy days! next week, my class is gonna have a test in order of 3 weeks..and it's like omg! wish i can survive with a good result :D


so wish me luck

WHAT IF...

what if we weren't meant to be together?:( what if all the expectations we expected, never work out? what if someday we act like this all was nothing and we act like strangers? it won't happen. amin. sometimes, i'm a believer that teenagers' love are perfect and will last forever. but who knows? as in reality, sometimes it does, but sometimes it doesn't. so which one i should believe in? that it will last? or it won't? but at least, i have a theory in my mind. that if i really want something to happen, to last, i have to make a great effort on it. so yeah, i'll do my best to make it lasts, and i'll make he does too well, i couldn't agree more that part of me wants you to be love of my life. what could be a dream anymore? so scared about the losing problem. I'm not gonna put a high rate on hope this time. but i really am high on hope..that i can't help

bad backstabber

hate on me?go on, i don't care. well i don't live to please you as hell. now i know exactly what you're all about. talking about me behind my back, and pretend that we're strangers. shit talker. hahhahaha

girl you such a badddd backstabber.  hate her so bad. she runs her mouth more than anyone i've ever known. maybe she should shut her fucking mouth. mmm honestly, i think it's kinda funny that she wasted her breath talking about me huh got me feeling kinda special:b
don't blame on me like you've never made a mistake, then for talking about behind my back, like seriously, is your life ain't interesting any as mine? i gotta laugh
here's the thing: this is my life, my problems, my choices, my mistakes, my lesson. &this is none of your business. you better mind your own problems before minding mine. fair enough?:)